today is steeped in reality. like a truth teabag in my cupsoul.
ok, sorry.
had wonderful time w friends last night, GREAT sleep!, lovely rainy/ overcast/ cold day, good chats and meaningful moments with people at church today. real church was had these last two days. and i have felt myself be filled, and it has softened me and sharpened my focus. God gave me the thought of being conscious of other people only. of listening. of not worrying about talking about me. not worrying if i am feeling good. funny, when i focus on others, that happens anyway. i dont have to look out for myself.
God will take care of me.
ikki gave a sermon that left me in tears for a few reasons. obvious is, theyre leaving. i could kick myself for not asking for more time w tara.
exhortation. i know what God has given my heart in passion and what i want to see accomplished. im scared, though. i stood w some others today in church, admitting i know what i have available to me to be able to impact others with the reality and love of God, and admitted that i need courage.
if i dont call CASA by january, please feel free to do something dastardly to me. like kick me in the face with a nail infested donut.
yea, i dont know either.
my life begs for Gods ordering. God has been calling to me and calling to me to make time for him. reading not a fan. by kyle idleman, and im wondering about why i take the casual acquaintance relationship i have w God lightly. i sometimes get intimate when it suits me. but i am never committed. when im with a friend i can see, i dont just drop them and go hang out w someone else when they call. and i dont just give my friends the beginning sleepyness or last scraps of my day.
thats it for my life blurb.
No comments:
Post a Comment