im starting to feel the pull- slightly- back into youth ministry. im pretty scared. but im now willing to admit that its where my heart is most of the time. i think im mostly posting this because i need prayer. prayer to start walking into whatever is available. and doable. i mean, id like to keep my day job. ;) i also need to be laid before the throne because of my aforementioned fear. in my last church, i was a super-integral part of the leadership team, and i took those kids on as my babies. i didnt know i had done that at the time. maybe i had made them an idol. dunno. but when i had to leave for say-town, it ripped my heart apart. its taken about =well, until now for it to heal. 2 years and 7 months. thats longer than my healing from the very painful /messed up[aka lesbian] relationship. i wonder why its deeper. why i havent looked into that more. why i didnt think it needed as much attention.
im interested at the timing of this reawakening. its felt like all of a sudden its hit me again. no rhyme or reason. i think my movement into inquiring about possibly helping is going to be slow.
i need prayer for my heart to rest and for God to place everything where it needs to be in a way that i can see it clearly and understand the futility of fighting it!:) thanks friends.
Hi Heather :) So youth ministry huh? Well, why can't you keep your job and just do youth ministry on the side part time? Most youth ministers do that anyway :)
ReplyDeleteHeather I like that you at least thinking about getting back into youth ministy. I'm about graduate and honestly I want to see awesome leaders rise up in the youth group after I'm gone. I want my friends and family to have awesome leaders. You would be one of those people I think would be awesome at that. I'm praying that God makes it evident for you.
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