i always write about hope, it seems

hope has been expanding.
i have had lovely friends pursue me, and let me know im worth it, and i am thankful.
i feel like its a preparation for me to be able to interact with my husband well.
i was wanting a house, and got a car instead. that made me really wonder about my seeming need to be settled in stark contrast to being mobile.
our family has a friend my age that is currently living with them. hes from africa and is going to school here, and so has a valid student visa. for some reason he had to renew his regular visa or something, and was turned down. hes looking at thousands of dollars to contend it. his life looks and feels very transient right now.
i have other friends who are embarking on the mission field right now, have already done so, or are thinking about it for thier future.
i have friends who have lost thier jobs[big surprise right now]. its still scarey, esp. when its so "close."
i guess ive just been thinking more that im not promised anything here, and this is not my home, and who friggin knows whats gonna happen- i could end up in canada for all i know[it was the most randomly weird place i could think of- romania or something of that nature isnt so strange to me:)].
i look forward to the possibilities- husband, coming alongside him in his love for God, whatever thats going to look like[!], hopefully be able to foster parent or adopt somewhere in there, ahH! thinking about possibilities is unending! who knows what God prepares us for ! just being able to walk alongside believers and non believers alike, and grow and minister, and be ministered to=
what an adventure!
hm. i will be tired. i will get hungry:) ill cry. ill laugh. ill get hurt. ill be mistreated, and lavished on. ill lead. ill love. ill be misunderstood. ill misunderstand. ill be known. ill know. ill listen. ill stay up late on purpose , and against my will.
life is sounding really exciting right now! even the "ucky" parts. anyway. that was my brain on lots of water [and great tea, thanks to kelsi:)].