cooked chicken this afternoon. i was going to invite people over to eat; glad now that i didnt. what i thought might take 40 min took about 3 hours . dont ask. im not sure.

going to a hockey game this afternoon/ evening. kinda excited, never been. i think i like sports more now as im older. i appreciate them more, and theres something in there about knowing i could do the sport, if i had wanted. my feelings of ineptitude as a child with anything group sporty made me pretty much detest all sports not swimming or running. sad.
anyway. romania is real. a friend today asked me multiple times- are you going? is it 100% ? i was like , sure! yea, i mean, if i get the money...
later she asked me again. i had to really really say, yes, im going. there was something in that exchange that felt like peter and Jesus.
i was wavering, wondering if i should start saving as much as possible to contribute to the "fund." i was going to - and somehow, after today God showed me my lack of trust in him. not just in the area off finances, but how that just spills out everywhere once we give it a foothold in one place.