i actually want these words in the song to be true of me.

i was super ugly to a man in a shop today. he was tryin to be helpful. my sarcasm is what comes out when i am actually trying to cover up my shame, then anger- thinking i can stick a smile on it, release my pain and hope theyll be dense enough to not really hear the hate in my voice, while i still get an easy out and a justification for my sinful feelings.there is no fight left- jj heller