needy

i have to get this out more than whats available to me.
tonight something happened at a friends house and it totally triggered and dredged up a huge chunk of my past.
it was unravelling.
thankfully my friend was there to hold me and listen. im struck now with realizing the ripple effect that my past is having on my future.
and the oddity that these ripples exist in an alternate universe where they seem like they may become torrents- not fun.
i need to be reminded that he holds me and to give myself grace to look at everything and reflect and soak up truth.


::my husband, bless his soul, will be amazingly patient and be able to contain much::