so just a little update- God is still at it. 

im trying to work up the nerve to go hang out with the youth at my church.

and possibly [probably] stepping down from the Sophia ministry leadership. which makes me sad.

i had a really difficult chat with one of my friends last night- shes having a hard time with relationship stuff. i cant believe God has me talking with her about it. im  only one step ahead of her. maybe half a step. it was interesting to realize how much i was pushing her at one point, and to see her not "get it." or at least it seemed that way. maybe i analyze things too much:-P  [exactly what is it i was wanting her to "get"? im not even sure.]

Gods been asking me to get up in the morning and spend time with him. heh! its funny to observe myself.  i can wake up early and get going if i need to go on a cruise or come down to corpus, but meeting the Mister of the Universe- thats just too hard. hes a kind love that allows me in my humanness to lay in bed and offer up half prayers and sleepy slurrings.

there was a woman in cozumel that yelled at us as we walked past-"DONT BUY ANYTHING FROM THAT MAN, HE'LL RIP YOU OFF!" needless to say i was shaken. i  had already passed the man before and had no intention of getting anything- but her exclamation made me want to, to spite her. 

it grieved my heart. the husband was passive as the wife proceeded to decimate the man to another, who had nominal authority as an info guy for tourists. he stood there and just listened. as we walked away, my anger and grief grew, and looking back now, im really sad i didnt turn around and love on her. or chastise her. either action wouldve probably elicited the same response, considering her mindset. 

we walk through life with life abundant while others walk round dead. im exhorted.