what do you do with a longing like that when involves your family members? and your spiritual matriarch [grandma]? do i really just like analyzing things? ::maybe::
but thats not an excuse to push someones desire for communication away. i should talk about me. it pushed my desire for deeper places with my grandma, and she pushed me away. it hurt.
yesterday i encountered some interesting ways my immediate family was relating, and lemme tell you. speaking into the unspoken paces is hard.
but it's like the tiny drip that, over time, becomes a great river. The Lord is a completer of works, Heather, and nothing goes unnoticed by him. No tear, no hurt goes by Him without Him hurting with you, holding you closer, and wanting to make you more like Himself. He will make things different, He's just chosen to start with you first.
ReplyDeleteOne of the things your Grandma gave me as I was moving off to Africa was a goodbye note. In it she mentioned some regrets of spending time together, and feeling it was perhaps part of her doing. We do funny things as people, but I think if we could do the things we most long to do (as long as they are good things) then we would be much happier. Your Grandmother will not be around forever... don't miss the opportunities you have otherwise you may very much regret it later. :) Now I ought to take my own advice and call my sister ;)
ReplyDeletelemme tell you, indeed
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