i was stopped at the gas station by a middle- aged man....maybe in his thirties, with just some premature grey. anyway. he commented- you have a dagger in your ear[clarification- i have a tapered, straight gauge. its a little under 2 in, i think.]
he wanted to know if it was a goth thing, and i responded. he probed, asking if there was a meaning.
so, i launched into why i have it. i paused right at the beginning, asking him if he knew stuff about the bible. he was like, duh! so i continued.
he made me clarify some points that i never even thought of before. i told him about the historical servant thing.
he asked me, so after a specific time, after youve done so much work, it changes?[im paraphrasing greatly, i cant remember what he said exactly. ]
i said, no, its a little different, and proceeded to give him my thoughts. he asked the same thing again, in a different way, and then i was able to give him my full response.
what i came away with, that feels very new and im surprised i didnt think about this on my own- this is a new covenant. its simply taking a symbolizm from the old law. theres nothing else thats remotely relatable. before i came to believe Gods love for me, i was working hard, working to be good. i was a "christian" then. it felt like slavery. when i finally started realizing his persuit and love of me, and that id rather be stripped, offended, misunderstood, broken, and whatever else with Him than successful and happy by myself, i wanted a symbol of my devotion out of love to the Lord. i want people to know the peace that our Spirit brings.
i didnt say all this to him. it felt really awkward that he was being so interested and was really allowing me the time to talk. i didnt know what to do with that. there were two sides to that. one, that he was just wanting to talk to me cuz i was cute and wanted to see if he could get anywhere, and two, he couldve just walked up to me and said- i REALLY need to give my heart to the Lord in thanks for what he has done for me RIGHT NOW!
so, the feelings associated with those thoughts. put them together. thats what i felt. i couldnt focus well.
but im thankful that he asked me about it . im glad for the clarification.