i need bed soon.

[ hi, btw]

im in my parents' house alone. its kinda nice. i was sick tues nite and a little wednesday...but only a little. more like recuperating. everything came out of my body tuesday night. i dont know if you wanted to know that, but i wanted to share. mmmm. share the...

anyway.

i had my plan of getting these baskets for thanksgiving made up for the kids and their families in the bible club, and then coming down to see my sister, going back up for club, then trotting over to garner state park sat afternoon.

i was upset when i realized i was seriously sick, then a little afraid, then formulating a plan to drive myself to the hospital if need be, then realizing i could wait it out til morning; it was getting better. interspersed through all this was the thought- God must need me to slow down. i always feel that way when i get sick. like its the only way i can be stopped sometimes. i reflected on all my plan making that i do.

i usually ask, should i do this? and if it feels like theres no resistance, i go.

i really felt it was good to see my sister. i still wanted to go if i was well.

and i got well, and i did come- hence me sitting in my parents' house, on the comp.

i miss my sister. and a feeling/ thought came blazing into my head as i drove here from her house.

--i miss living here.

theres a familiarity that just cant be replicated. i love being close to family. im thankful that i am close still. 2 hours isnt a hard drive at all.

its just funny cuz a couple months ago, if youd asked me if id ever think of moving back, my answer would be a detached, oh, if God called me back.

but now , it would be a longer answer. and i wouldnt be afraid to admit i miss it. and the air is softer here.