im awake- it isnt that late this time! wooo! ok. life.

tomorrow we have a byebye dinner for one of the hygienists thats leaving. its gong to be weird w her gone, but good too, she needs it and i think it will change teh climate of our office a bit.

i am hoping for my key tomorrow. but will prolly get it fri. whiich is ok. iim giving them toothbrushes to pass out when they give out candy from the office. i'll get it then for sure. we'll say yes. my dad is coming that day, and will help me move. that night is dr s.'s 10th anniversary as a dentist. we are having a ssemi- formal dinner, which i assked my dad to, since he'll be here already and id like a date.
the next morning is bible club. i need to buy card stock before then to make a memory game. who knows if we'll be in this apt or that. my dad will leave right after since he needs to be at a wedd in corpus at 3. i will then start getting ready for a halloween party in the midst of probably being oddly moved into a new place ? eho knows what the status is going to be at that point.

i have an idea that im going to do for the club- i know the books of the bible to a 90's rap. im gonna perform it for them maybe next time we meet. and dress up a bit. twill be fun.

i was thinking about painting the walls in my new place, but i looked at some home mags with a friend tonite and im not so sure now. but i have made a pact to put nothing up on the walls for a while. im scared to put an actual time frame on that.
it would be hard for me to not have everything "perfect" by Christmas. hahahahah!! the spell check told me Christmas was spelled wrong, when i put"c"- awesome.
i have a queen size bed, but always end up sleeping in between 2 cats. the width of this space always turns out to be a 3rd of the width of a twin size bed.
this is when i hate my cats. unless one of them lets me put my feet under it.

i find myself burning to paint. im saddened by the lack of space always to do this in. its my biggest obstacle.
i feel like a whirlwind.
maybe ive had way too much suugar these past 3 weeks. i know i had too much today and yesterday.
the cats claws need t obe clipped- ow! and blarneys' nose always runs when he gets all snuggly and purr- y. he actually drools too. hes a crac k- head.
im not going to have insurance now, until i decide to get some on my own. but i will have a few hundred dollars back every month. so thats awesome. just think. heather never gets sick, and all this time i couldve had that money being saved up for something else. its a thought. i know its not being careful, to not have insurance.
but i also know God does things we cant believe and i dont have any children to stay alive for as long as poss. God gives me these kids he does for now, and amazing things have come about in my life already taht ive seen are fruit for others. so i just firgure i'll let him keep going.
my body is jittery. it was before, with all my thoughts and so thats why i got up. now im thinking my major thoughts are out, so lets do some stretching and breathing and get back t o sleep.

oh. and i figured out my outfit for the 10th anni dinner, and im gomnna be looking for some light gold flats or something. thats one more on my list. i think sometimes theres a little inner gremlin that secretly enjoys all the crazy and bustle andslight acid reflux.
looking at teh home mags today and talking about what my friend wanted in her new home- made me start wanting to have more than 2 rooms to decorate and be able to renovate and paint without asking anyone or being restricted. to be free where i rest .