so, this......
http://histablefortwo.blogspot.com/2012/03/covered-tenderly-by-my-kinsman-redeemer.html

has left me tender.
other things have left me tender too.
having my heart break at church all throughout the worship and sermon, and not having words, just tears. not having understanding, just acceptance.
knowing God took me on a "father/daughter date"
and that he showered beautiful sunny rain just for me, just when i was walking to the park--when id planned to go to the park prolly and hour earlier and was just getting around to going.
breaking me enough so that i could blubber cry to my dad on the phone about all my most tender places in the moment, and he [my dad] responded as a dad should. and it was perfect and helped settle my heart.
giving me the responsible thought to say no to fun good dinner time w friends, to get my life in a little bit more order, and to grab some rest.

and even in the fresh painful trepidatious knowledge received today that there are bedbugs again in the apt complex. hes here w my heart. just sitting with all my questions and concerns and prayers. and it was no coincidence i read tracys blog and found this--
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F4DK7arkztw