remembering

i remember hosea, the picture of my Ishe.
my God.
i remember gomer. the picture of me, my wandering heart.


and seemingly because of my wandering [ it says "therefore"--well, it has a few of them. its progressive]
he is alluring me. being his charming self, drawing me with his tender words....

into the desert.
into the wilderness, a place unknown and evil to my lovers. a place far from my jewelry and masks. far away from the comforts that make me self- sufficient.
and i have to look to him for daily sustaining and guiding words.

even walking in trouble, he teaches me to look for the hope. he teaches me to sing here, when it doesnt make sense to sing.
the words that have been used to keep me entrapped by my strongholds will be removed. my mouth will not know them anymore.

his bride price he gives is his righteousness. justice. love. compassion. faithfulness is his promise forever. he wont change how he feels about me.

he will ground me, sustain me, and cause me to flourish in the land that he chooses, and for himself.
i am who i am for him. he longs to see me grow up in him, know him.
God made us, and then he had to take a break. i think its because he was overwhelmed w love for the souls he had in mind, and he was so excited to spend some time w adam.
and i was undone in adams side. but coming. becoming.

hosea 2 genesis 2