i have not much to say. i just feel like talking. fb feels to sterile. this feels cozy. weird how something so detached can feel nice like that. today was kinda hard, but okay. i grieve for my co workers. loving your job but getting your butt busted for measly pay sucks.
"keep on waitin, waitin on the world to change"
id definitly like my world to morph a bit more.
some things ive been thinking on lately:
change
fear
suffering
accomdating
living fully
we are beautifully disciplined in the mundane- thats where true christianity shines. the trouble and suffering that Christ talks about is found in the things we find drudgerous. [most of the time, for an american christian. yes, we encounter trauma]
i feel far from where my heart used to be a few months ago- when i felt very soft.
ive been slowly shown that im kinda hiding parts of myself from God and from myself. not to mention others. but i dont know what these places hold.
so. i dont know how im "blocked off".
thats about it. i think im going dancing.
AAARRGGGHHHH i am so angry right now! i had the most awesome encouraging comment (not to mention LONG) and then i clicked somewhere by accident and it went away. there is no words to describe how angry i am. almost to the point of tears!
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trying again, (stupid internet)
i think that we all have those dark scary places inside of us, and we dont really know what lurks there, but I think God does. and i think that if we pray that he will reveal himself to us, then those things will come later. we find ourselves after we find God. Jesus comes first, and things fall into place after that. we find our identity in Him.
i think that was the bulk of it.
i really like this:
"we are beautifully disciplined in the mundane- thats where true christianity shines. the trouble and suffering that Christ talks about is found in the things we find drudgerous."
that is amazing
I love you, and jesus loves you more than you or I can comprehend.
this was in the original comment also, “You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”
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love