im weirding out- the more time i try to set up for myself, the more it runs away. and i feel really selfish recently when ive said no to other things that ive wanted and done something ive really wanted/ needed.
i must really not understand God, cuz ill start doing/ being a new way, thinking, ok, this is what it is- and then theres this being blindsided with something totally new.
lets not be so vague, heather.
ok.
this week i made a point to have time with Jesus and his Other Thirds. [hehehehe!]
it was/ is great. i dont know why he allows this "if- then" stuff, it feels so conditional......
but i made the time, and i was totally having a great week! i guess i could say i am. ive been in good attitude places at work and hes given me grace and knowledge with the kids.

and then, i read some blogs, and all of a sudden, im being reminded of more. theres more. im ok where im growing, but not. i want more. and its frustrating, this dang time thing we live in. more means more time is needed. i cant do/abide in/ be more on the same time frame that im holding.