no grace groups. had a massage today during lunch. have to feed graham (linds K. 's cat that rache is keeping) , because rache is having huge asthma problems. shes in the icu.
i have to go in to work tomorrow early because one of the hygienists is sick- has been, and the schedule didnt change. the doc that is preggo is about to pop, having pain, and overall im a bit stressed. i think the massage was timely. didnt know how much i needed it when i called them last week. the guy was really surprised [as was i] at the amount of tension in my back. i can take a lot of pressure. i asked him for firm to deep presssure, and he still couldnt work out some of the balled up muscles i have. looking at and feeling my small boney frame- well, i think he was kinda at a loss. he put me on a schedule. 1-2 times a week for 3 mo. im going once a month. he also asked that i stretch 3 times a day. whatever. well, fine, i'll try. i guess i should take better care of my frame.
i had a thought today. i willlet you put an adjective in there. ive always had a massage by an older man, or women. the one guy was at least in his 40's. women cant massage me well. they arent strong enough for the pressure i like. anyway. this guy today was at most mid 30's. it was kinda strange...i wondered for a split second if it is ever hard for him to massage beautiful young women:)
he was professional (of course)and those thoughts quickly left. lemme just say- there are muscles i didnt even know i had- and they were angry for being overlooked for so long.

a little boy bit through my skin today. thats a first. thankfully it was a family i liked. i still cant really feel the tip of my finger. usually, a normal clamp- down has feeling by now. the nail will stay sore for at least a day...im thinking in this case, through the end of the week.
im thankful for peace. especially the kind he gives.

i want, on these nights, to have friends around. but thats usually not feasible. so, i will think about you, my friends, reading my thoughts that i give you and pretend that we are sitting face to face.