today

after this time of having my laptop not be mobile around my apt, i know for sure in a month or two im going to demand whatever is needed to get this poor flimsy thing off its leash. im making do lately by sitting on the floor and propping it on my couch. makeshift desk.
i was typing floor, and my hands automatically typed floss. guess how many times i type that a day!
i actually dont know myself. maybe i'll count this next week and get an estimate.

ok, back to the subject of my title.
i woke up to kitties wanting to be fed and let out on the porch 10 min earlier than their scheduled time. grrr. i had set my alarm for an hour later and when that went off, i was going to just go back to bed for another hour, but there was a mewling kitty somewhere and it sounded stuck. i went outside and looked around but couldnt find anyone.
it stopped later. since i was already awake and FEELING awake, i stayed up. cleaned the floors[did it again=floss. geez], went to lowes, sun harvest, and got gas all in about an hour. walked to a cafe to get some coffee[and some quarters], started laundry and talked to the manager about this apt.
it is now 10:30.
im awesome. i wasnt even rushing through all my to-dos.

so. the apt wont be ready until a month...or maybe 2. like i said before, im disappointed, but its getting better. im pretty sure i was getting all hyped up about what new things i was going to do in the bigger apt, and feeling all intense about how the new decorating was gonna come out. thats where all my upset has been. crazy huh. boys dont have this problem. some girls dont have this problem.
one of my co-workers/ managers voiced her relief that i wasnt in there yet when the fire happened. i actually wouldnt have minded so much. maybe it wouldve destroyed some things for me, so i dont have to agonize over getting rid of them .
see, i think i have alot of stuff. i like to keep objects for memories. since i have a not so great one.

these past few days though, ive been super awesome with putting things in give away piles- trinkets, books, even dishes. i wont be able to part with any of my pictures/ wall hangings, i dont think. i love them too much.
but, what i have done gives me alot of joy. we need so much less than we have .

i loved walking to the cafe and chatting with the cashier while he got me my kolache and coffee. its not as close as other cafe, but the prices are better and they have less weird hours.
today i need to work on the bible club lesson. ive been putting it off cuz i basically cant just wing this one. im actually teaching it again, because there was onlyy one boy last time and i said some things- pointed out to me later- that werent sound. thank God for do- overs. he knew.

and these last couple days when i was in tumult , he knew. i kept reminding myself of that. and he spoke to me through oswald. that days devo was about disturbed and receiving peace. heh.