know when you read something and your heart leaps and tears come and you just have to stop reading and cry, and prepare yourself to finish reading Gods heart toward you?
just had that.
when i really stop to think of how he uses whatever he wants to get through to us, im in shock of the crazy.

"Don't lose hope, my lady. Remember that you rest in him, and he loves you. When you came to him, he poured out blessings upon you. He promises his continued blessing. I don't know why this paralysis has come upon you, but I do know Jesus has not abandoned you. He will never abandon you, my lady. This may even be his way of drawing you closer to him. Seek his face. Listen to him. Remember who he is, our comforter, our strength, our counselor, our healer. Ask what his will is for your life. He hasn't taken you home for a purpose. He will reveal that purpose to you. It may be that God has done this thing in order to give you a greater commission than one you might have assumed for yourself."
--hadassah, An Echo in the Darkness by francine rivers