soooo, my hope is renewed! i kept telling God, i just need help.
i just need help. i cant do this on my own.
well the apt manager gave me some options to stay in another apt while im waiting for the txment to work, and last night the maintenance guy helped me self spray. its just good to know other people understand what im going through.
[they had them too]
tomorrow night the real deal is gonna happen. and ive gotten the place REALLY ready; im super awesome at this now. if you ever need someone to clean like paranoid, im your gal.
a little boy that has only been to the kids club maybe 2 x was at my stairs today- almost looked like he was waiting for me. i dont even remember his name. but he asked when kids club was happening again, and he gave me a hello and goodbye hug.
if thats not proof i need to stay/ try to stick it out, i dont know what is.
my decisions dont make sense to the people i work with. they dont make sense to me sometimes. but i trust that God has my life and everything in it.
I'm glad you're feeling some relief and help with this whole chaotic situation!
ReplyDeleteAnd I'm happy to hear that your heart is alive in the midst of it knowing that regardless of how complicated all this has been for you, that you know where you belong and what you need to do with those kiddoes. It feels like evil has kept you from that and I'm glad to hear that some ground is being taken back! (o: