rest is a funny thing. ive been able to do it a great deal lately. God has been giving me time for rest. he gives it back to me, it seems, since i have purposed to have morning time with him! 

ive had less and less words to give people recently. less about myself, less to uphold them with in their pain or join them in their joy. im not sure where my words are going. i havent journaled half as much as i thought i
would for this week, and i havent been here. also, i apparently dont make sense to people ALOT and they ask for clarification. 

but its all good. i am not stressing. im just growing i think. i need space and im trying to allow that. i dont want to rush around finding "answers" while missing whatever God wants to say. today as i walked in the park with him, i was saddened to feel i hear fuzzily. my spiritual ears are not used to his voice as  much as id like them to be.
tomorrow i ask about guatemala. see if they will let me go in nov for the dental trip, or if someone else could go... i hope we can send one of us.i dont care if its me. id actually rather it not be me. the soon-ness feels busy and stressful.  i also need to grab some extra toothpaste for another friends' trip to argentina [? i think] this week. and then i will be preparing to see lindsay!!!! i cant really wrap my head around my actually taking a road trip to see her and zach. funfun.

this morning the "dont worry about tomorrow, for it has enough evil of its own" verse really made sense. with money, and trips, and possibility in my future...i just cant stress. its not worth it. i have today, i have Gods love and provision for today, and i can pour it all out and get more tomorrow.