kate, tabby, and i had a little bit of a rollercoaster with the house stuff. Dear tomorrow, please tell me we have this one.
when i say little, it was little. we put in an app for one house, and didnt get it. people are cutthroat. esp about houses right now. its ridiculous. and i always misspell that word.

the house we are *probably* going to get is WAY smaller than i wanted- the rooms and bathrooms are small. everything else is fine. i guess the smallness doesnt matter too much; we dont have very much combined furniture, and i have the most. half of my furniture is gone. maybe more than half.
im listening to sarah brightman, and realize its not as soothing as id hoped. bye, sarah. i need some hipster singing.
mumford and sons!
ive had alot of emotions today; some of that was just stress, and i miraculously havent been really stressed in a long time, so it was a very distressing feeling for me. i would rather not. i kept trying to just calm myself down and talk it all through with God. it took me crying 2x and getting really mad at another driver in the heb parking lot, to get over it. i hope he was a christian and it didnt ruin his night.
i have this sneaking suspicion that he is a christian, and that he prayed for me right after. cuz i felt -- prayed for.
i told one of my bosses today that im kinda set on leaving, and am looking into overseas missions. she was really supportive, and reminded me that they will support my decision. im gonna try to catch the other dr tomorrow. shes harder to catch. the one probably told the other already anyway. which would be great. sometimes i think she needs a heads up. or, actually, i need prep to talk to her sometimes. shes so antsy.

theres so many things swirling in my head. address change, getting car reg.renewal sent in time, go to sprint, go to store, get some cleaning supplies and such from riends' house, plan the move, plan a party, keep in prayer, sleep on the floor the right way so my neck wont hurt, find a good answer to give people who have a problem with me sleeping on the floor, make a list of things the new house is going to need, find out what to do with my cats, keep doing rodan + fields, get a washer and dryer, some furniture, and recover my chair. get braces, go to the doctor, take my car to the doctor too. stay present with people at church and friends, stay kind to coworkers.
ive been having such an easy time loving people at wok lately, and i had a "normal" day today, where i got a little stressed. it showed toward some of my co workers.  that made me mad at myself. i totally was being unnecessary and unprofessional.
people wont like me all the time.
i thought of this as i was coming back from walking from dairy queen. midnight truffle. yes.
i was walking into the complex, and this is the 3rd or 4th time ive noticed-- the asians in this complex cross to the other side of the street as they pass me. maybe im being paranoid.