WHY AM I NOT ASLEEP/

hello. it is late. i cant sleep. someday, i will get serious, pick up my prayer journal, and GO>
maybe after i do this, i will. typing out spiritual shouldves for other people to read kinda pushes one.
i guess thats where all the cool accountability comes in.

some thing i think is contributing to non sleep- excitement. today, just later, i am going to austin and my plans are; zilker park, toy joy, bath in a bathtub at a b&b. YES!!!!
kirby lane, mangia, and anywhere else i damn well please. ooooh! and theres this free for all golf course and i plan on running around on it at night. the moon should be out. hopefully its not too cloudy.
im just all super happy about this. i may go to the elizabet ney museum.i like going up into this top room there. it has cool stairs and a cubby thing i cant explain right now, mostly cuz i cant remember exactly what it goes to , etc.
i got an amazing massage today, and my nails are done. now if i could just get some recuperative sleep.
i did decide the other day after hearing all this stuff about sleep apnea, and the effects of non sleep on a persons ability to function and be healthy- that i wanted to try and make sure im getting my good deep sleep.
cue non sleep.
after that i chatted with God, and i believe he can work supernaturally and ill be rested in the ways i need to .
so back to prayer. i start praying when i cant sleep, then it really wakes me up, then i have to start pacing.
i actually didnt pace tonight, i got on the comp. mostly because i didnt really want to pray anymore. i know that sounds bad, i mean i wasnt even praying for very long. the subject of my prayer just felt weird.
so ya know when you are wanting relationship, and you may have someone in mind, or you may not- but you start praying for them more fervently? that was happening tonight.
not the weird part yet.
[theres not anything super cool or super natural coming your way. sorry]
anyway. i started praying for my friends and their future spouses. like, alll of them. you were included, those of you who are single. it was just strange, it felt so real . i dunno. there are those prayers that you mean and those that you more or less say. all my praying was generic, but it was hopeful in a different place.
thats it. OOOHH< i cant wait for austin. theres something that my heart has needed that God is providing in this weekend. i know it. theres a strong pull of not just fun to be had. something more, something deep.