im sitting here feeling quiet, slow, full of peace. and good tea. i made the last of this tea- i think i remember what it is. maybe i can get some more. funny, i didnt think it was awesome for a long time and now that its my last cup its great.
these past few days have had very little going and doing. very little errands or agendas. its been lovely. and i havent beat myself up for listening to songs on utube.
im memorizing ephesians 5 except for the end about wives and husbands. feels weird to memorize that. the first 2 verses of eph 5 have been stark in my mind and heart for the last couple days, in how they picture what my heart is supposed to look like and how im meant to love.
i dont think i want to be mean anymore. sometimes things come out of my mouth that are witty or sarcastic- but i think they hurt. i know there are countless moments things are said to me that i get a little bothered by, even though i know it was meant to just be silly. maybe thats what coarse joking means.
i want to go to bed earlier tonight. bye!