i feel so solid and calm in my being right now. ive felt this for a long time- long to me, like a week. but tonight. really solid. i loved people well today, all through the day. [in measurement of how i typically love, or dont love]
there arent any problems right now. ive got alot of my stuff in order, theres no pending crazyness, and ive been kind to myself and let me off the hook for a couple different things, even just today.
i think letting who God says i am really sink into my gut on a few points has "peaced" me.
having my apt and all it holds on my timeline[ i.e., the dishes are done to my specifications and when i want them done, things stay where i put them] really is a calming point for me. guess its the mom in me.
its nice to sit in these moments., who knows if ill be here for long.
its amazing, at these places of my psyche/heart/cycle, i could be single forever. its fine, i love it, i have freedoms to be really readily available to anyone (such as, you could call me right now).
i love this place of centeredness.