high maintenance

::isnt that how you speel it?::
always looks weird to me, that word.

random little side note first.

i was in the shower and thought, how funny it woould be if we sang everything in opera? i mean, at work a couple of us joke around about singing to each other besides talking, and we do it some. it always brightens our mood. makes it more interesting for the people around us too.
but, like, i totally make up a great emo opera sounding song thing about chocolate being left behind by marshmallow on the graham cracker ship.
it was really pathetic, and hilarious.
then i started just doing nonsense sentences, that was fun.
not sure why i dont do this stuff around people.

anyhoo. high maintanence. this has a negative connotation. but.... me and the two girls i click with the most on all levels were hanging out. and 2 of us ended up speaking to the other about her h.m. nature. she got all offended and i had to speak slowly and calmly to keep her from going off the handle. id never really put her in the h.m. category until then. it felt strange because shes not what you think of first [ or at all] when that stereotype comes up.

shes a beautifully deep christian. high standards, not afraid to speak truth and that forcefully if needed, always loving, giving the benefit of the doubt, having righteous anger, sacrificing for others...and it goes on.
basically , i found in my thoughts an excitement for being able to categorize her like that. its like redeeming the term. taking back the territory that those words have occupied for so long. as christian women, women with standards and values, who know what we are worth- we are a mystery.
[i should point out that we were talking about guy stuff. ]
and it is more than acceptable to be h.m. being a strong leader, my friend gets frustrated with the men around her that are fearful of moving into her realm and who are still complacent as boys, or at least holding on to parts of boyhood that shouldnt be protected from turning into manhood.

we affirmed in her the beauty and mystery and worth tthat warranted men around her to press in and have some difficulty in pursuit. to have to work to know a true woman.
these fresh thoughts kinda hit me between the eyes. made me step back and look at myself, just a little. im not contemplating this much, but its in the back of my mind now.
redeeming the phrase "high maintenance"